For real

Okkervil River - For Real

Some nights I thirst for real blood,
for real knives,
for real cries.

And then the flash of steel from real guns,
in real life,
really fills my mind.

Then I really miss what really did exist
when I held your throat so tight.
And I miss the bus as it swerved from us
and almost came crashing to its side.

Sometimes the blood from real cuts
feels real nice
when it's really mine.

And if you want it to be real, come over for one night,
we can really, really climb,
and those blue bridge lights might really burn most bright
while we watch that dark lake rise.

And if you really want to see
what really matters most to me,
we can just take a real short drive.

Just a drive into the dark stretch,
long stretch of night,
will really stretch this shaking mind.

And this room, unlit, unheated,
and the ceiling striped,
and the dark black blinds....

I want to know this time if you're really finally mine.
I need to know that you're not lying,
and so I want to see you tried.

And I don't want to hear you say
it shouldn't really be this way,
because I like this way just fine.

And there's nothing quite like
the blinding light when that curtain's cast aside,
and no attempt is made
to explain away
the things that really, really, really are behind.

You can't hide..

Time is not on your side

By treating meditation/awareness/insight as a process, you will always distance yourself from it. It takes place immediately, it is action, you just do it. This is the most important thing you'll ever learn, in fact it is the only thing you must learn. We all try to increase our levels of knowledge; we read books, we discuss and debate and analyze things until we acquire a desirable level of intellectual understanding. But what we are doing is pushing it all in front of us, creating a division between "us", and "it". Insight exists in the present moment. Insight requires immediacy. How can you possibly prepare for insight? Where does preparation end, and insight begin? Time and the idea that improvement is gradual, creates a gap between us and what we label improvement. We will never reach it. If you want to see truth, there must be a revolution, it can not be a series of reforms. Time, improvement, reforms... these are all verbal entities. We create them out of our fear of confronting the present moment, they aren't real - they lead us astray. Fear is always verbal. Fear does not exist in the moment, it is based on experience and memory, and is played out verbally in our thoughts.